Thankful Thursday!

Do you know that you are in the very place in your life right now that you are supposed to be?

I believe there are no coincidences. Only silent miracles when God wants you to believe that he is there rather than having to tell you all the time.

Wherever you are in your life it is no accident. If you are hurting, if you are struggling, if you are on the top of the hill…YOU are where GOD wants you to be. If you are seeking his will. I also believe Gods will is always going to be carried out…but we have to be seeking his will for US for his will for our lives to be carried out.  I know that there are definate times in my life when I wasn’t where I was supposed to be and I don’t ever want to be there again. I am on a mission to be a constant and active follower of  Christ. I am constantly seeking the will of my father to do what is right.

I am on several missions as we speak…as a woman, as a friend, as a wife, as a mother, as a daughter and as a human. I have the awesome opportunity to be studying about Esther right now. WOW!!! I am blown away at what God is already showing me.

I am not proud of the mistakes I have made in my life..and believe me there are many…many to be ashamed of…to want to hide and never use for the greater good of his will. But one thing I have learned is that you can not disconnect your past from your future…Those two things are connected. Always looking forward with the knowledge of where i’ve been.

I went into choir practice like I had been punched in the stomach. I take on the problems in my life so dramatically like a woman that I get overwhelmed…begging God to show me what to do..what is best…what and how would he have me act. And we began working on a beautiful song that I have cherished for several months. God showed up! I felt an overwhelming movement in my life of the holy spirit. I know I am where I am meant to be…I am the one who has to accept that and have the hope in my Lord that he will pull me through it.

So…if you need HOPE…there is hope…if you need peace…there is ONLY ONE who can give you peace…It is no accident..Just give it over! I leave you with a verse and the precious words of this song.

someone here needs healing, someone here needs hope…you may be searching for strength in your soul. it is no accident that you are here right now, cause the glory of the lord is all around…when his presence fills this place…all of your worries melt into praise. there’s mercy extended…the broken are mended..when his presence fills this place.

On this thankful thursday…I am thankful for what the Lord has given me and is teaching me. I am thankful to be in this place that I am in..I am grateful to know he has my best interests in mind and wants me to lean on him. i am so thankful that the burden isn’t mine…but meant to be given over. Thank you Jesus!

My man Part 2

is in honor of my eldest…jack glenn…Wow what a child…I am overwhelmed with the love one kid can have in him. We are definately lovers around here..always hugging and giving kisses..There isn’t a five minute period that goes by that he doesn’t find me…love on me and tell me he loves me. He thanks me for cooking for him, for getting the wii started for him, for getting him a snack, a drink…he is so thankful.

He is such a sweet and precious gift that God has given me. My little man is coming leaps and bounds. We have come a long way since the beginning of the school year and we are moving ahead. I am so proud of how smart he is. He amazes me…it truly is a gift that I do not have. He is reading so well..He loves to learn…loves to do things that he has not ever done…

He kicks my booty on the wii..and that makes me laugh. He is five people…five…and he breezes through things that he shouldn’t be able to.

Although he is smart and precious…he has the sweetest little heart that God has given him. He has a love for the Lord already…he talks often about what it takes to get to heaven…and wants to understand so much why God loves us so. I know he isn’t that far away. He wishes daily that he could see him. But talks to him often and it is soooo precious. There isn’t anything sweeter than hearing your baby talk to His father. Even thru the hyperactivity…he gets it…amazing…I can not wait to see where God uses the personality he gave him. There are BIG plans for this little boy I know it..extraordinary plans…I may not see it through the stress and frustration sometimes…I know there is a plan to use those things as strengths in the future..Thank you Jesus!

My Man Monday!

This is my first…My Man…and I am devoting it to my man.

I am writing this missing my husband badly. He is gone tonight for training with work and we all wish he was here.

I am so blessed. I know that I am a lucky girl to have the man I do. My eyes are opened to that more and more each day and I thank God that he gave me such a cutie and a sweetie to live my life with.

Jason is such a good husband. He is an encourager, my best friend, my love. He has had my heart for a long long time and I love him more now than I did way back then. God has truly brought us a long way and I am so thankful to have this walk with him. He is a great father…my boys adore him. He helps me out so much. Believe it or not, he helps me around the house, he cooks sometimes..he watches the boys for me to work…he does ALOT!

Days like this when he is gone…i realize more than ever how much he actually does help me. I get so used to him being an active daddy that I feel all alone when he isn’t here.  I just wanted to brag on him a little today. I love you baby!

He deserves the Glory!

Today I was allowed the priveledge of singing with our choir a beautiful song…called “You Deserve the Glory”. Wow…Jarred’s message today was on the power of prayer. And I learned so much.

If you know me..and truly know me…You know I am as stubborn as they come. I like things to be a certain way..and that is usually my way. I’m not slow to talk or slow to anger. I am a reactor…a feeler…

God has stretched me and grown me alot over the years. He has taught me to realize these traits that I need to work on….where to let him take over. But somehow…i come right back and take those reigns again. It goes smoothly for a while…but the slows down and isn’t moving at such a pace that I would like…so I just in the drivers seat and take my own path.

My family suffers, my marriage suffers, my business suffers, my relationships suffer…everything suffers.

We all have heard the terms Ask,Seek & Find when it comes to your prayer life…some people sit around and just wait for it to happen…some people don’t realize that everything will not come to you…and some people are so jealous of those who have and they do not. Satan can work in so many ways to destroy what God truly wants to do in our lives.

Ask…ask for God to show you his will…his will has a place for us in it…a place for us to complete our mission here on this earth. A place for us to follow what he has called us to do. Not ask for everything and expect it all. Some prayers go unanswered because they are not in the will that we are suppose to be following. Some aren’t answered to protect what he has in store for us.

Seek….seeking is to look for those things. Look for those answers…to have such a discernment of what we are to be looking for. Go without fear…go without doubt…go with the knowing that he has what is best for us.

Find…finding what it is that we have asked for…we have asked for his will…and we will find his will when we search with all of our heart. The tools we need to follow the plan he has for us…

We know God is all things..can do all things…but he needs us…This is the eye opener for me. We have the choice to let him work through us…he needs to work thru us…and unless we are willing open vessels it will not happen…until we are asking each and every day for his will…seeking it out,…finding it and following his plan for our lives…he is unable to move thru us.

In a recent conversation with a dear friend who i s a non-believer…this was a conversation that was allowed to go further than before…one that he actually listened…still fighting…but listened…made his wife hush to listen..there i stood without the right words to say. he is an educated man with lots of knowledge of other religions…I am lost for words. I prayed right then for the spirit to move thru me to give me what to say. AND he did. What came from my mouth wasn’t of me. He knew more than I did and I was ashamed. I wasn’t prepared. I wasn’t willing…I wasn’t being used like I could. This will not be the case again!

For God loves us SOOOO much…he gave his only son. I look at my firstborn..and can weap at the thought of what God went thru with Jesus and then I still do not know all of what that pain was. Far beyond my imagination…far beyond what I can ever believe is true…But he loves me. he loves me when I am beautiful, ugly, mean, rude, tarnished by sin, angry, hateful, broken….no matter what …he loves me. He knows every freckle on my arms…every hair on my head by NAME, every eyelash, every scar, every mark on my heart that has made me who I am today. No matter my sin…no matter my past ….no matter my mistakes…no matter anything that can make me think he wouldn’t love me…he still does. all he wants is a relationship with me. he is waiting…waiting for me..waiting for you. and if someone loves me that much and loves you that much..don’t you think we should spend time getting to know him…thru his word…thru time..thru prayer…We spend far much more time worrying about those people who don’t want to be around us and trying to make them be our friends…But there is someone who wants to know everything…He already does…but he wants us to tell him….He wants the keys to every room in our hearts…He wants to tell you it’s gonna be ok…he wants to love on you when you have been hurt…he wants to feel the pain with you. and also the joy.

So this morning..for 2009 I made my resolution. You want to know what it is…It is to know him More and More and More…

Because why? He deserves it…he deserves all glory, all honor and all praise..

not for what he can do for me…but just because of who he is…

To love him just because…He loves us just because…and he’s waiting for you too.

For when the oceans rise and thunders roar…I will soar with you above the storm…Father you are King over the flood…so I will be still and know you are God.

still no mommy!

well…he STILL isn’t saying Mommy…MAma…Nothing..Nada…Zip…Zilch…

Tucker is now talking…he started…with his first sounds being MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM…..he would look at me and say it…he would look around other people to find me and say it…but still nothing.

He has been saying…Dada..first word…then bubba…then Hey…Yesterday as clear as a bell he  answered WHAT?….then tonight…as clear and as loud…over and over and over…we got…Hey Daddy…Hey Daddy…Hey Daddy…even with my prodding for a momma…Nothing…He would actually shake his head at me and tell me no…then go back to Hey Daddy!

This is how i see it even though it’s KILLING me…my first two…are clearly as they get older daddy’s boys…all boy…rough and tough…can’t play with momma like that so dad is more fun…But their first words were MOMMA…so i’m banking on since Tuck’s first word was Daddy…HE IS ALLLLLL MINE…and he is right now…he will leap from your arms to come to me…will let you know right quick when he doesn’t want to come to you from me…My mom and Jason are  really the only one that gets the priveledge when he’s being tooky! So for now…keeping my fingers crossed…and await the moment that precious child looks at me with those Big Baby Blues and says Mommy! Thank you Jesus for the precious life you’ve allowed me to take care of and call my own…

Cute Phrases

Well..my parkerman has got them. I love listening to him play…you never know what will come out of his mouth…he is hilarious…In the past few moments playing trains in his bedroom..i’ve heard…Waahoo (yahoo), Wehaw (yeehaw) and HoLy Moley…just thought i would share a few…

Can you believe it?

well…2008 has come & gone…2009 is here to stay atleast for a while…i’m not big on new years resolutions..but i am big on changing my life for the better.

I am done with kids…having all I need or could ever ask for..so…it is definately time to get this baby weight off…With each child i have a lovely 20 pounds that came with them…I haven’t been oh so motivated to get it off either. When you are a mother of three active boys..your time is now devoted to them and their needs and not your own…you are doing good to get a shower and makeup on each day much less to go workout on a regular basis.

Well..this year I’m determined…I look at pics of myself now and those of back then and it is a wake up call…I never thought i would’ve let this happen to myself…My first vice to give up is Dr. Pepper….if you know me…YOU know it is HUGE….it is an addiction to me…my worst thing that I do and I have a hard time…but it has definately gotten easier…it’s been 4 weeks. I’ve had 1 …and honestly i don’t even want one anymore. Just being able to do this proves that I can do much more to change my life. I don’t want to be on a diet. I don’t want a quick fix. I want something that will change my whole family’s life. A lifestyle change that will be forever.

Hold me accountable…pray for me…join me if you would like… I’m not perfect…i’m sure to fall…but i shall not give up!

A New Year…

Wow! I feel like 2008 passed by sooooo quickly. There were so many major milestones for our family that my head is still spinning. Time that is gone…memories that are made…things that I will never get back.

Jackson…my oldest…started kindergarden…has been diagnosed ADHD and we have recently found out has Wolff-Parkinson White syndrome. Alot going on in my biggest little boys life. He is such a precious child. Smart, brilliant in fact…scares me to death sometimes how smart he is. He doesn’t miss a beat…keeps on moving (constantly I might add)…artistic…musical…tenderhearted…loving and kind. He has came leaps and bounds around here since he started school. I am so proud of him. He is becoming a little man and I’m just holding on, thanking God and praying for him constantly. He is such a good big brother and helps me so much around here. I couldn’t do it without him.

Parker…my middle …big boy…Started 3 yr. old Preschool…potty-trained…accepted another little one into our life without much fight. Makes me smile and giggle to myself everyday. He is animated…if you just sit and watch him for a few minutes you are sure to be giggling yourself. He is our family greeter whenever we are in public. He will let you know who everyone is and expects you to give him the same courtesy. If not..you will be quickly called on the carpet. Sure to go BIG places with his tougher than nails, no fear, strong-willed self. I pray for his safety EVERYDAY..because he is constantly leaping from tall things and doing things that make me hold my breath. He LOVES to dance and can sing you a little tune himself. He is now sharing his colors and his numbers with everyone and even speaking a little spanish thanks to his teacher.

Tucker is now almost 10 months. You never think you can love another as much as the one before…but GOSH….I can not imagine my life without this little red-headed, thumbsucker I have. He is the BEST baby…and that is hard to say, because all of mine have been good babies…But he is the best I think i’ve ever been around. Goes with the flow…easy to please…just feed him and let him sleep…give him a little attention and there you go. He is now talking…a little…still not saying Mama…but has Dadda and Bubba down pat…Can do patty-cake…and is now officially crawing correctly and standing and moving,walking while holding on. This time with him has flown by and before I blink…they will all be grown up.

Jason has a job..Praise God. a good job…with great people…Which is even a bigger praise for those who know the background with a past boss. We are thankful that not only does he have a good job, he has a godly man who is his mentor that loves him and our family. We are very blessed…

Myself…2008 was a good year…My business is blooming and growing everyday. I have been blessed to have a steady growing business that I can be home to see my children grow up.

Thank you for each of you who have prayed with us, loved on us and helped take care of us this past year. We are grateful for each of you. Please continue to pray for us….Jackson will be going to the doctor soon to figure out what to do about the WPW, pray for my sanity as a mommy that I can be the best I can be…thanks so much. We love you, from the Glenn Gang!!!